I love the way you said,
"Baby, I swear I love you."

Dear Diary,

A happy 2010! I'm very very contented with my welcome of this year. I came back from malaysia on the 31st of december 2009 and was on time for countdown. I was planning to celebrate countdown with Justin but my parents wanted to celebrate it with me! And I was kinda disappointed cause I had to make a decision between my family and my boyfriend and it was hard. At 11.30, I was lying on my bed talking to Justin, expecting to have the worst countdown ever. In the end, my parents came into the room at 11.45pm saying I cound go countdown with my friends. Immediately, I jumped up and my dad drove me all the way to the house. And on the dot at 12 mid night, when fireworks shot up in the sky, I was standing at the door giving everybody a surprise. It was one of the happiest moments, thats for sure. We had toast, and I had not ONE but TWO presents. One was a bag made out of a chiong sam material which I loved it so much. And the other was another bag with red and white stripes and a very nice soft pillow like material and a big ribbon which totally matched one of my shoes, I was very touched cause that really proves how much he notices about me. hahahah. Anyhow, I really enjoyed myself there and wished it lasted longer, sadly, I had to go home by 2am, it was a real mood spoiler!
The next day which is today, my dad suddenly wanted to throw a random bbq dinner which at first I wanted, but my bro said he couldn't make it home in time for dinner so the idea was dumped aside for awhile. Then my bro called back again and said he'll make it for dinner but by then, I already had plans to joing Justin and his parents to go new year visiting at his uncle's house. So I told my dad and left. Though I did enjoy spending another day with him, I still wished it lasted longer cause today, time really seemed to pass so damn fast.
Yet now, though I'm very happy that I managed to spend more precious moments with him, I'm having this guilt in my head. I want to be with Justin, yet I want my parents to enjoy themselves too. Am I being a bad daughter? I really feel I am yet I miss him when I', with my parents alone. Cause my bros aren't there to keep the liveliness and my parents will focus only on me and start talking about this and that which I don't like talking to them about. I'm sorry, but sometimes I do find my parents annoying.
If only they approved of our relationship in the first place, my life wont be that much of a problem. Everything will be so much smoother cause I wont need to hide anything from anyone. But now that I am, I feel terrible sometimes but I have to, for my own happiness, I have to.
I wont leave him thats for sure. I just wish and need my parents to give up and let me be with him, just him and no other guys, only him. I love him only.

Loves

COLLEEN;
short & sweet.




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