I love the way you said,
"Baby, I swear I love you."

Dear Diary,

WHY MUST FAMILY FIGHT. I HATE FAMILY FIGHTS. FUCK!
everything is disturbing me. MY LIFE SUCKS. seriously. JUST FEEL GLAD YOU ARE NOT IN MY FAMILY. Everyday, everybody is fighting. Father complain got chest pain. Mother complain being parents not easy.
FUCK LA. I NEVER DO ANYTHING WRONG LA. Now so late, I using computer to do my work. Brother use computer to play game. Yet everything also end up i kena scolded... BUT NEVERMIND! I dont shout back. I dont do anything. But do you have any idea how stressing it is to be me. One minute tell me to study, tell me to do my work. At the same time, here shout there shout, how on earth can i do my work. AND FUCK LA. now my ah ma crying. I LOVE MY AH MA! WHY MUST THIS FAMILY MAKE HER SO SAD. WHY DO I FEEL LIKE ITS SO SCREWED UP. Why my 2nd brother never get any part of the whole fucking incident. WHY WHY WHY!
WHY CANT WE JUST STOP FUCKING FIGHTING. WHY CANT MY PARENTS JUST STOP THEIR FUCKING PROBLEM SO THAT WE CAN FUCKING NOT FIGHT.
WHATS THE PROBLEM WITH MY FAMILY! now im starting to even think what is family. who is family.
RAHHH! I DONT WANT MY AH MA TO CRY!!!! BUT SHE'S CRYING! SHE'S STILL CRYING! AH MA DONT CRY! I wish i can tell her, but in the end, I surely get scolding. Cause everything i do is fucking wrong. Why cant my family just sit down and talk. HAVE CONVERSATIONS. COMMUNICATE! oh gawd! HOW I WISH EVERYBODY IN THIS FAMILY CAN JUS GO FOR COUNSELLING!!! i dont mind! ITS FUCKING AFFECTING MY WORK! how am i going to fucking concentrate now!! TALK PEOPLE! TALK! MY FAMILY IS GOING NUTS! IM GOING NUTS!!!! tomorrow is first day of school. I dont want to cry tonite. Please dont let me cry tonite, i dont wanna have swollen ugly eyes tomorrow.
Sometimes, I just really really feel like running away. Especially when O level is this year, with all these minor problems growing into a huge problem, how can i ever study. the question is HOW AM I GOING TO STUDY AT HOME! now that my mother wants me to stay home all day to study. only allow me to go out on saturday, but that is still under consisderation. so with all these problems, how to studdy!?!?!? YOU TELL MEE!!!!!!!!
I WANT TO LEAD A HAPPY LIFE. I WANT TO BE HAPPY. Everybody just dont want to give in to each other. Everybody just wans to have it their way. Everybody wants to settle their problems their way. Everybody thinks everyone dont understand them. BUT HOW ABOUT ME! I ALSO THINK NOBODY IN MY FAMILY UNDERSTANDS ME. though im the youngest in the family, I STILL HAVE FEELINGS KAY! and IM REASONABLE!!! so dont scold me for nothing! if you dont want to lead a happy life, thats ur problem. I WANT TO LEAD MINE HAPPY.

I just want all this to fucking stop now. Fuck all this problems dead!

COLLEEN;
short & sweet.




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