I love the way you said,
"Baby, I swear I love you."

Dear Diary,

I've been great for the past few days and weeks. The holidays has begun and things are just fantastic. I've been going out with Justin every week which I'm totally happy about. And yesterday, he even gave me a surprise. Though I admit I'm a total spoiler. Well, Justin has just been a great boyfriend to me.
However, I admit that I don't think I'm being a good girlfriend to him.
One bad character/habit about me is that I'm easily jealous. Seriously.. Especially when it comes to relationships. Even Justin ever told me that a million times and I too, noticed that. Well, I made a promise not to be jealous and I actually shouldn't be. But just that I find that he's like a girl-magnet? Cause he is really a nice person to talk to and I'm sure girls like talking to people like him. Anyways, whenever that happens, I just suddenly feel that my heart beats faster and my mind just filled with negativity, I call those feelings parts and parcel of jealousy. But those are starting to fade off nowadays. Now, I'm okay if he's talking to someone cause he has his life too rite? Well, that was what he told me previously and yeah, i do agree. I guess I was sort of eating into his life. uhh. scaryy..
Anyways, but another thing i just noticed why I'm so easily jealous. Things he likes to do, are different from things I like to do. We are somewhat opposite, we think differently. And when the girl he's talking to, has similar favourites, meaning they can click quite well together. This stupid jealousy comes up again. When he says the girl is funny, the jealousy grows. At that moment, I would think about the promise I made and.......nd..nd.. Oh who am i kidding!! I'm more sad than jealous actually.. especially when he starts fantasizing over the girl. Somehow making me feel she's better and that they have more things to talk about than we do!
I feel like I failed being his girlfriend.. really. Though I really do still love him to bits. I just...cant accept that fact that... Arghh i dont know..
Just when I feel he loves me as much as I love him, something just has to happen and now I just feel....so mix feelings.
I'm failing to be a good daughter, good friend, good student and now, a good girlfriend.

Sighs!
I guess there's need for more improvements..

COLLEEN;
short & sweet.




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