I love the way you said,
"Baby, I swear I love you."

Dear Diary,

I had self awareness camp on friday all the way to saturday. it was a really an enjoyable camp, able to mix around with my fellow classmates in an environment different from school. Well, apart from playing and just having fun, i came to realise my relationship between my parents and me. I now understand my parents' thoughts for me, every scolding there's their reason behind it. Yes, i knew it long ago but i couldn't accept it, all i thought was my own reasons, most importantly, it was my "wants". I didn't accept the fact that when they scold me, it was for my own good. and at that point of time, all i thought about was my reasons vs. theirs.
I'm trying to be a good girl now, but i guess at times, i might forget about what i wrote here today. I'll constantly try to remember why and how i'm here, on this earth. and how lucky i am to have a complete family that most of the time, wouldn't dissappoint me.
Another thing i learnt from camp was about relationship, not any relationship, but a bgrelationship.
I learnt about the true purpose of having a relationship. Its not about sharing everything you have with him and its definitely not trying to get anything out of him. But most importantly, the purpose of having a relationship is marriage. And its truly obvious that i'm too young and not ready. I guess this is what my parents have wanting to tell me through the years but i think they didn't make it too clear for me to understand then. And yes, during camp when they were talking about it, all i was thinking was Jusin and how whatever they said, can relate to the past relationships i had. And i'll take this "waiting for him" as a test to see how true is my love for him. And as i always tell myself "God has a path of me, only he knows what is going to happen next." and i have faith that whatever path he made for me, it'll always turn out good cos i know he loves me! not only me, but you, and you, and you, and you, and you, and not forgetting...YOU!(:
Oh wells. My birthday is coming soon! afew weeks more till im officially 17! woo hoo! i wonder how would i celebrate it this year. i'm planning to be something small meaning no parties. maybe just a outing? sounds fun? but exams are nearing! oh gosh, maybe i wun celebrate it this year. exams are more important yeah? hah. see how, i think now its still alittle too early to say anything yet.
Hmm, wondering how i celebrated valentine's day and with who? wonder no more! i celebrated with my class on friday and saturday morning. and celebrated with my parents and granny in the evening, had paranakan food. and for sunday, i celebrated with my whole family and jasmine(alph's gf) at united square, novena. we had buffet! omggosh! till now, i'm feeling bloated. Hah. and afew minutes ago, i suggested to order pizza through delivery cause i wanted the "HOT" sticker. its so cool! hah. oh wells, tomorrow is monday, just another day in school but going to church in the evening. ahhh. im so bored. 30 more minutes to the start of "Incredible Tales" hahah. the last time i watched it was with Justin via phone. i shall recall the moments!(:
Uh ohh. laptop's batt low. blog ya next time!

Loves!

COLLEEN;
short & sweet.




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make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
barely gettin mad,
im so glad i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy,
as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
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and that's what i'll do.
i love you.
(i love you)
give me more lovin from the very start.
piece me back together when i fall apart.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
best that i've had.
im so glad that i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
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