Sweetest love.
Sunday, March 30, 2008 | 9:14 PM
3oo3o8,
Dear Diary,
just got back my hp yesterdae.
but i think i shall jus not use my hp. the past few daes im already trying my best to jus focus on other things.
like reading my book! yeah! im reading books. but now jus finding that damn 2nd book..
"Meri Strikes Back", all on loan!
anyways,
Saturdae, i went to church! had some choir bonding session. its realli fun, heard my brother organise it or something. im realli proud of him. and i lovveeee my brothers all so much.(:
okay, we mostly played games. we had some acting miming game, newly edited spiderweb game using a piece of string, a realli cool acting poker card game, charades and captain ball. some i think i have missed them out. but i jus noticed that mostly was more to acting. kinda reminds me of my eldds, acting acting acting. but overall, i think kor kor has worked great on plannings and all.(:
and, everybody was so enthu! it was amazing. probably my first time seeing everybody, as in everybody who was present to be so into all the activities. haha. that made it more fun. ermm, dunno how to say it but i guess the meaning is already there.
aftr that, we went home. and aftr bathing and all. i sat at my bedroom baywindow and looked through all the stuff that was on it. all the plastic bags, all the presents. and i saw 2 cards with silver enverlopes. i opened and started crying. i tried holding it in, but i guess memories jus gushed into my brain or something. those two cards happens to be anniversary cards from bryan. one had a letter, i read and it was touching! i was jus thinking like, is everything realli over.? one year of relationship all forgotten and inroduced to the past? bryan bryan bryan... justin justin justin... arghh!?%#!!*&! aftr that, i jus stood there crying and jus thinking of all those times. den i turned to miney mouse my gigantic soft toy(i sleep wif her every nite) and jus felt like a loser all of a sudden. ):
hais, aftr awhile, i jus reflected. i noe mysef well, and i noe for me, its totally hard to concentrate doing things when i somehow noe there wasn't anybody i could end of the dae blahh out everything. i couldn't blahh out everything everydae on my blog. cos some are private and confidencial and some are like headaches when comes to think of it and some are like complains and all. =x sighhhh. i guess somethings are not meant to be. i guess im jus not meant to have a bf. well, to look on the bright side, at least i dun have to care how i look anymore. i can be as crazy as i want to like last time.(:
Sundae, went to church in the morning. guess wad. me and my brother, alphonsus, was early for choir practice! hahaha. and my older brother, no where to be found. lol. some may say we have siblings miscommunication problems but, well, sometimes we do tok, jus that its not very often.(:
aftr mass and aftr another choir practice, me and my brother alph, went home and planned to play bball together. turned out, it was raining so best if we din get sick. so we watched tv all dae till around 3 plus? we went to TERMINAL 3!! we walked the whole of it and i think i can already remember where is wad floor. i picturized some of the terminal 3's map. aftr that, we ate at the kopitiam and we ordered like super big grilled chicken when curry rice and 2 sticks of satay wif yummy vegetables and soup! all for $5.50! hmm, i think i shall go there wif my fwens one dae and explore the place. maybe we can play hide and seek! LOL. jus kidding.(: afr that, we came home and my older brother who came from "nowhere" came home and my dad had to fetch him to army camp. bye bye kor kor aloy.. soon it will be kor kor alph! he is going in soon, in april i think. less then 2 weeks to see him, hug him and all. omgg, soon, i will left alone at home. how boring!!! hope my granny would talk to me again.(:
love you loads.
