I love the way you said,
"Baby, I swear I love you."

Dear Diary,

im currently feeling very sad now. as i jus broke up wif my bf, justin. i realli love him, like seriously.
afew daes ago, around 2-3 daes ago, i told him abt my parents not letting me have a bf and wad they would do if they found out. yea, as usual, he will feel all concern and caring, which i realli love about him.
so ytd we were discussing abt wad to do and all la. and somehow leaded to separation. yea, i did feel sad and wanted to cry. but i was in church so held it in.
anyways, i noe he broke up wif me was for my own good..
like cos of my parents, plus, he, himself noe that if my parents were to call and question him one dae, he would ans back and all and he din want to get me into trouble.
and and i actually suggested that we could like contact each other in the morning and aftrnoon. but at nite, concentrate on studies and sleep and all. but i guess he din wan our relationship to seem its suffering. u shud noe wad i mean..
and he also noes that next year, he would be busy with his dunno wad army thing. so he wun have enough time to spend wif me. though, i dun mind. but i guess he thinks its not worth it.

the thing is.. he is like one of the two people i love most.. as in bgr. one is bryan, the other is justin. but now bryan claims that he was going to be a playboy and all so now i kinda gave up on him. but justin is like, i dunno how to say. whenever i got any problems, i would always turn to him. and now, the problem is relating him so now, i dunno who i can actually tok to. justin is my angel and he will always be. i can still remember. i was in lower secondary and i accidently forged my parent's signature on my report book due to being scared about my results. and aftr forging, i totally broke down into tears. i din noe wad to do. so i called bryan and i called justin. bryan said not to tell them or i will die. but justin said to tell them. ended up, i told them and my parents din beat or scold me. it was like, whenever i listen to justin, nth bad actually happens, though i learnt my mistakes and all. so somehow, i always think he is my angel. he was always there to help me.
but now, its like i lost all those. though i noe he is still going to be my friend and we still be tokin but somehow, im afraid one dae, i will jus totally lose him and soon, i've got nobody to tok to. like tell my problems and nobody to help me.
anyways, tmr is suppose to be our one month anniversary. and it all jus dissappeared one dae before our anniversary. i've been looking forward to this dae since last month, and now its over. im realli very sad.

i love you.):

COLLEEN;
short & sweet.




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