I love the way you said,
"Baby, I swear I love you."

hais, now the truth is out...

was he playing wif my feelings? all i wanted to noe is the truth... aftr noeing he is seeing smbody else, i guess he wasn't tat good... but i noe i still love him. but im trying to forget him, and all these takes time.

dreams are fading away, words have nothing to say, emotions are confused, but one thing...
im realli lost!

i realli love him, but i guess he doesn't noe it. and all these reminds me of the past, and it realli makes me regret.

regret rejecting pple who realli loves me, regreting noeing the ones who realli care, regreting hurting those who were real...

all those, i realli do regret. and this is probably my 3rd time sm1 has broken my heart.
and now i realli dun feel like loving any1 anymore... i jus dunno...

is life so meaningless? but for wif those around me, thank you. for those who helped me, thank you. for those who there for me, thank you. for those who realli cared, thank you... u pple realli made life great!

but, sometimes, things are not meant to be wadd they wanted aftr all... i learnt tat we cnt want everything in life. specially not to play wif love.

"LOVE" has a great meaning and a huge power. love for friends, love for god, love for family. all different kinds of love... but there is one thing, tat hurts pple the most, tat is relationship love. it realli hurts deep inside.

all i wanted was to noe sm1 smwhere out there, who i can talk to, sm1 who i can tell all my problems, sm1 tat i love him, and he loves me, sm1 who wun break my heart, sm1 who wun hide from me, sm1 who wun lie to me, sm1 who noes wadds real love, sm1 tat will listen to my thoughts, emotions and things like tat...

i wished i knew tat sm1 fast...

but! i cnt rush all those cos they are in god's hands. and he is the one who noes fate, and he is the one who noes when is the right time, he is the one who noes his pple well... i dun think he wan his pple to suffer, but wif temptation around, god's pple suffers... and i noe god is always there for me when i got problems, but one thing is, i cnt communicate wif him.

one thing very special i learnt from ms shanti in school was... the relationship between god and the relationship wif friends. well, to me, i think now is the time to change from "more time wif friends" to "more time wif god". from "close relationship wif friends" to "closer relationship wif god".

we meet friends everydae which also means we talk to friends everydae, but do we talk to god everydae? at the most is every week. but even if we tok to god everydae, do we realli mean wadd we say to him? do we think about smtin else when we are tokin to him? god noes wadds lie and wadds truth. and god also noes time. so things shud not be rushed. to me, human thinking and god thinking are different. god noes wadds coming in the future and wadds in the past even before we were born. but human thinking is different, we do things to make future so smtimes disasters happened. we noe the past by learning history or reading books, but do we noe weather those are real? or wadds behind those thick walls.

although those sounds holy words or smtin. it realli came from my heart to type is all down.



but one thing i will nvr forget is...

LOVE hurts!

COLLEEN;
short & sweet.




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